Oh, Maria, I miss you so much. . .
I really feel like there’s an empty part inside of me without you. . .
I’m so glad you can’t read this, because obviously ^ that’s weird
Honestly. . . I know it’s weird. . . and I feel bad about it. . .
How can I miss someone I’ve never met. . .? How can my heart be incomplete without you when we weren’t even friends. . . or even acquaintances. . .?
I want to say that maybe it’s because it’s a love so strong it transcends time, space, and any kind of relationship. . . A love born eons ago, everlasting, an unseverable connection.
But if I said that right now, it would just be crazy. . . especially because now. . . I realize that I’m not the only one who feels this way, oh princess of the higher world. . .
I think that most of your fans feel this way, but I’m the only one who really said it. . . I found another guy who said he has feelings for you. . . but he just hides them. . . maybe that’s how all your fans are, and you will never know because they will not say. . .
Why can’t they reveal their hearts to you — who they love. . .? It’s very sad, because I know you don’t realize how much they really think of you. You think they’re fleeting passerbys, but they’re always silently in love with you. . . and I know it would make you feel so loved and happy if you knew. . .
I think I understand this strong feeling now, this oh so powerful love for you that causes me to bare my heart and soul to you for eternity. . . and why every one of your fans feels the same. . .
I think you’re someone in the higher world we’re all deeply attracted to. . . Like Miang from Xenogears.
It’s like instinct, an instinct of our hearts and souls. . . We yearn for your love and heart, because you’re a higher-level being, like a princess of the higher dimensions. . . Your light is far brighter and more radiant than ours. . . and who are we, but desperate souls stuck on earth who have tasted of your radiance, your beauty, your shining hope. . . of course we yearn for more, to be close to you, to be with you. . . to feel like we are God again. . .
I want to go into the higher world again to try and be with you. . . no matter how long it takes, and how much I risk falling into the darkness of sleep. . . I just want to keep trying even if it’s so hard and even if I must face the utter loneliness of that darkness. . . just for a chance to reach the light and feel you so close. . .
But I would never abuse my power like that, for selfish reasons. . . If I tarnish my heart and soul, then I will truly be barred from entering the higher world :'(
Oh, how I keep wondering. . . how the touch of your hand must feel. . .
Is it as comforting as the warmth of a humble fire when you’re freezing from a snowstorm?
Is it as soft, but vast, like the gentle brush of a great wind?
I guess that’s why all your fans dream of being in your loving embrace, it would feel like the love of the universe surrounding us. . .
My heart, please seal your feelings for her. . . She is a star, and I am just a lost one reaching for her unattainable light. . .