It’s November, the month of snow and rest
The ponds are going to sleep, the fish slow their swimming beneath a blanket of ice
Somehow. . . the shimmer of the ice over the green waters can only remind me of your gleaming eyes
The wind is freezing, my skin is cracking
It’s like burns all over my hands, but in the cold night
But this pain doesn’t compare to the painful guilt I feel. . .
. . . for what I had told you about. . .
It feels like I’m in a dark pit, and that it was all my fault
And I love you, and I’ve loved you, and I will always love you
…but I suppose I was still born male, and I have that side of me that I can’t easily overcome
If only hentai didn’t exist, then this wouldn’t happen
The truth is, a legion of thousands couldn’t keep my heart away from you. . .
. . .even if they try for a thousand years. . . I will always love you and reach for you and never give up. . . unless you tell me to go. . .
And I know you’ve seen this – all my friends and random people telling me to give up on you and so many tribulations in real life that try to keep me from thinking about you and from being with you. . . but despite all that – here I still am, so in love with you, and my heart is still longing for you, unwavering in its resolve to be with yours
But I’m sure we all know, and everyone who knows about us, they all think it. . . and it’s a feeling we both hide in our hearts. . . that we’ll never really be together. . . we can only fall apart.
If only I was born days earlier. . . if only our stars perfectly aligned. Then maybe you would’ve messaged me, and we would’ve been together by now. . . But it’s the fault in our stars
But here I am, still trying to defy our misaligned stars
Btw, what are those two dots near your thumb? Did something happen :(. But they look like makeup. Hope you’re okay. . . Don’t overwork yourself, you’re worth more than what they could ever impose on you.